Well, 2019, I don't really know where to start with you. You've been one of the best yet also one of the worst years of my life, although I'm glad to say I'm finishing on more of a high.
In my 'goodbye 2018' blog post, I talked about how I was feeling more confident and how I was cutting out toxic people, and 2019 has been a bit more of the same.
I'm proud to say I've kept up my fitness and in 2020 I have so many new goals set for myself, including going for banging abs and being able to do not only one rep, but a full set of pull ups. My little (but slowly growing) biceps can't handle one pull up at the moment, so a set would be a huge achievement.
I also spoke about wanting to go travelling to places such as Thailand and Bali, and I'm pleased to say that's a bigger part of the plan than I was thinking of last year. I've finally decided that I just need to bite the bullet and do it. There's a whole world out there and if I'm being honest, I've never felt like I needed to get away from Middlesbrough so much than I do now. I want to meet new people and see amazing things. So, I've decided to save up and book onto some group tours. This way I would just have to do the flights by myself and then I can meet up with a bunch of (hopefully awesome) people and finally do the travelling thing. I feel like it's something I need to do to grow as a person and although it may be way out of my comfort zone, I know it will be worth it.
Moving on to the reason why I want to get out of this small town for a while...
I won't lie, too many people let me down in 2019. I've learnt that I have to be quite brutal with who I keep in my life from now on, and that I need to focus on the people who really truly have my back. I constantly feel like I'm fighting a battle of people-pleasing and trying to see the best in people, but the truth is sometimes the best just isn't there. They act like they care. They say they wouldn't hurt you. They say they're your friend. Yet they throw you in the dirt. I've been let down way too many times by trusting the wrong people, both guys I've been seeing and friends, so in 2020 I'm only letting the best people in.
However, 2019 definitely wasn't all bad. I achieved so much! I finally passed my driving test, I graduated with a 2:1 and I even plucked up the courage to start my own online business (The Midnight Chapter) which I can't wait to see grow in 2020.
Speaking of 2020... Can you believe we're now in the 20s? This New Year felt like a real clean slate. New year, and new decade! So to celebrate, I've decided to make 20 goals for 2020:
1. Be smarter with my money - this year I really want to get a grip on my finances and only pay for things I really need. I need to get out of the habit of buying a new outfit every time I go out and actually just buy staple everyday pieces.
2. Book to go travelling - It's something that terrifies me but something I want to do so badly at the same time, so I need to make sure I actually book those flights and get myself out to see some beautiful sights my bucket list destinations have to offer. 3 places that are at the top of my list are Bali, Thailand and Iceland.
3. Blog more - I haven't found the time to create content for my blog this past year and in 2020 that's going to change. I'm going back old school, chatty posts, creative content and make up reviews!
4. Get back into a gym routine- my aim is to go at least 3 days a week.
5. Grow my business/brand - if you follow me on twitter (@justlucyslife) then you may have seen that I've started my own online boutique! I now have a little treasure trove of mugs, jewellery, trinket dishes and much more, go to @themidnightchapter on instagram or like 'The Midnight Chapter' on facebook if you wanna take a look.
6. Be more care free - it's easier than it sounds, but I just need to stop caring what other people think and stop saying sorry every other sentence.
7. Read a book - a challenge I think most people set themselves in the new year, but it's been so long since I've read a full book, so I'm getting myself down to Waterstone's!
8. Clear out my wardrobe - Narnia could be at the back of that thing for all I know. It's full to the brim of stuff I just don't need so this year it's getting organised!
9. Drink more water - again, quite a cliche one, but I always drink endless cups of tea and forget to drink just a glass of water.
10. Stop doubting myself - I really am my own worst enemy and I need to stop being so harsh on myself, I achieved a lot in 2019 and I need to remember to celebrate both big and small wins.
11. Go to the gym make up free - This is such a huge insecurity of mine and one I aim to beat. My skin can get breakouts because I refuse to go to the gym without make up on, but (going with my more care free goal) I'm going to try and feel comfortable in the gym without make up.
12. Finish my uni scrapbook - I have a scrapbook that I started to look back on my 3 years at uni and I need to add my final year photos to it.
13. Keep in touch with friends - I am the WORST texter. I'm one of those people where I read a message then reply to it within 3-5 working days, but that needs to stop as it stops me seeing my friends as much as I could. 2020 is the year of arranging catch up coffee's, brunches, cinema trips and cocktail nights.
14. Be more organised - quite a general one but I improved on my organisation a lot last year and I intend to improve it even more this year, basically, I just want an excuse to buy more pretty stationary.
15. Stop saying sorry when I don't need to - again, kind of the same as number 6.
16. Be more selfish - I'm going to be more selfish with my time, who I have around me, what I want to do.
17. Say 'no' more - not as negative as it sounds, but I need to start saying no more. I always find myself in situations I don't want to be in just because I was being polite but it took me a while to realise that you can still be nice and still say no.
18. Stop eating so much sugary stuff - of course I'll still have treats every now and then, but I need to stop eating chocolate-y things to get me through the day.
19. Be more patient - although I like to say I have a long fuse, I can be short tempered in certain situations and I want to keep my cool a bit more.
20. Be truly happy with myself - This is a big one, and I don't know if I can achieve it in a year, but I want to find myself this year and become happy with who I am instead of trying to be something I'm not and comparing myself to others.
I hope you enjoyed this post, I'm excited to see what 2020 brings! And maybe my goals inspired you to add one to your list? Let me know what your goals are for 2020 in the comments, let's motivate each other!
Lucy x
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We've all been there with people we think you can trust but their true colours come out eventually. Sorry to hear that you have been left disappointed more than once. Sounds like 2020 will be a year of fulfilment for you! Wishing you and your business the best of luck going forward!
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Yes definitely Amber, true colours always come out in the end! However, at least when they do we know who we can truly trust. Thank you for your lovely comment, wishing you all the best for 2020! Xx
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